I delayed saying this for as long as was reasonable. I kept thinking every day, things would turn around. Not happening. At least not yet. My arms are very uncooperative. It’s frustrating. And depressing. And frightening. And still unexplained. I have exhausted the supply of docs that it has seemed at all sensible to consult. And no one knows what is wrong, or what to do about it. So . . . I have no medical plan. I keep praying. I go to acupuncture when I can. I don’t know anything else to do.
Except that I need to close this place for now. That’s hard for me to do, because I have enjoyed writing and reading, and getting to know you all, very, very much. It is sad for me to leave here, because it is one more thing that is slipping away from me. On the other hand, it’s one more thing that’s on my want-to-do-but-can’t list, and that adds to my distress on some level. If I just board the place up until further notice, I think that will be easier.
Visiting, commenting, emailing, it all takes hand and arm strength and agility — you never thought about that, did you? Give thanks right this minute for the way your nerves and muscles and brain all work together so that you can be doing what you’re doing; it is truly a miraculous thing — that is in precious short supply. So with that supply, I need to do as much work work and home work and especially funstuff with my daughter, as I can.
Happy Easter to you all. And “thank you” doesn’t even come close to covering how much it has meant to me, to share this online time with you, these past three years. I pray God’s best for each of you. XOXOX and COCOCO (you know who you are).
*Loves*
(((Susie)))
I hate WTF. I love you though.
COCOCO in a big way to you, too. Love you, sis!
my prayers are coming your way, today and everyday. I’m with Helen on this one. Take care of you, and may WTF go away, because I will miss your great stories and writing style.
Well, darn it. I understand though. You hang in there and we’ll hover around for if and when ya feel like it and can return.
By the way: It wasn’t a wig after all. It was an afro!
No need to reply to that coded speak. You rest and know that someone once asked me what kind of creature I would be if I could choose. I answered that I would be “one that could heal and be healed”. If I could, I’d totally zap you with a bolt of Bloggerific healing.
Many hugs and much love. Hope to see you again soon.
Oh, Susie. I’m almost in tears, here….not as much over your leaving as I am just so damned frustrated with this mystery illness that will not release its grip on you.
I completely understand your wanting to shut the blog down in order to focus what energy you have on Real Life things.
I love you, Sweetie. And you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers every moment.
Love. Hugs. Prayers.
No words seem quite right. Just know I’m here.
I will certainly miss you. Love, hugs and prayers.
You are an inspiration that I will miss. My prayers will continue.
I will send prayers your way and know your inspiration kept me going on many days.
Really, REALLY going to miss you.
Will be thinking about you as always.
Aw dammit. Big pouty lip and eyes welling up. You do what you have to because you need to give that little girl everything you’ve got. I just hate not knowing if you’re okay or not.
I love you, Susie. Take care of yourself.
you will be in my thoughts every day
well, fuck. i’m sorry susie. i wish i could make you better. this news is the absolute cherry on top of the stunningly difficult week that has just passed. i don’t pray dear. i do, however, send positive energy in your direction every time you cross my mind. which is alot. a. lot.
again with the crying.
ok. enough.
know you are loved. know you’ve made a huge difference in my life. know you will not be forgotten. know even if you cannot communicate with me, i will be communicating with you now and again. know you matter. know you are a special gift to many. know you are not alone.
hugs.
Still giving a rats rear end
My additional prayer for you is that God will allow you to cross my and those others who are willing mind when you are in particular want/need of a prayer.When you make that silent call, God can let you know that we have been given pause, and are saying a little prayer right where we are.
Yes, Honey I do know what I am asking for. I am a great multitasker!
Kalki said it for me. I don’t have words for this.
I am sorry. Thank you for trying so hard all this time to share your life with us. I have truely enjoyed your blog…and will continue to reread. A lot of good things written, a lot of good comments to reread. Just because you’re taking a break from the blog does not mean I won’t quit praying for you. I wouldn’t pretend to understand why, what the big picture is here, but I am sure that God does love you and some of us that haven’t even met you do too. God bless you and yours this Easter, may you feel His Holy presence all around and a peace that surpasses all human understanding.
Tina
Oh Susie, no. This is just awful. I hope you’ll keep the site open for awhile-or forever. This is such a wonderful place and even if you can’t contribute anything new, there are wonderful words here that people can enjoy. As much as I love this blog, I know how difficult it is to maintain one and to come up with new material.
I’ll keep the prayer groups busy with requests for you and your family. I hope…I hope…I hope….
Tears welling up here too. I’ll surely miss you and your witty observations of life. And I’ve already been thinking about your Easter post. I love coming here and responding, “He is risen indeed!” I hope you’re taking comfort in those words.
I also hope that you’ll update us if there are changes.
My prayers continue . . . .
please keep the site open. you don’t have to write. just give us a place to come to….to send you our thoughts and prayers, to let you know how much you mean to us. it’ll be like a constant stream of get well cards. it’ll be love pouring like rain. it’ll be…well dammit, i just can’t let it go. stay. stay and read. write if and when you can or want to. but keep it open so when that day comes ( and it will) and WTF is history and you’re all better, we KNOW.
hugs, kisses, love, prayers…you get it all, sister!
Susie, I cannot possibly find any words good enough. Know that you have MANY, MANY, MANY people who will continue to pray for you. Spend your time and energy with your family, and check in when you can. Best wishes always!
Oh, Susie! I will miss you! If you or your family will have access to your emails, I will send you a note every once in a while to see how you’re doing – take care of yourself, sweetie!!
Sigh! I am so sad that you and your family are going through this-this-this thing that doesn’t even have a true name. How sad, how frustrating.
I will check back from time to time, always with the hope that there will be good news. I hope that you will have good news soon.
You and yours will be in my thoughts.
Oh honey… I have wondered if that’s what’s going on. And I’m heartbroken to have it confirmed. I am here with you, and I am not going anywhere. (Unless of course you call the sheriff… .)
Give LG and Jif my very best, and please have someone give the VBD some loving pats for me. But most of all, know that I love you. I’m sorry you have to board the place up, but I respect your decision. Go boldly forward, Susie, with all our love and support.
so very sad…you have been a blessing to so many people. we never know how many or in what way we influence people’s lives. thanks to blogging, you at least get a glimpse.
I love Allie’s additional prayer. and i know God will move in a powerful way your life and our lives to bring you the peace that passes understanding.
you will be missed…and we will anxiously await your return. i believe you will be back!
love you
I am very sad to lose this little place where I can come for some very amazing posts about life, the universe and everything. Like everybody else, I also keep coming by in hopes of reading that announcement that things are all better. I HATE that this WTF thing has taken so much from you. I think about you always and I will continue to stop by just in case you can update with a word or two in the future. I love you Susie. You know that we are here for you whenever you need us. Gentle hugs.
I love you, Susie. And of course my prayers and thoughts will be with you.
That’s really a too bad for your fans, Susie. Pretty please let us know if someday you decide to re-up. That would be welcome, indeed.
I’m sorry it’s taken so much away from you. We’re going to miss you and your blog so much, but your family and real life are more important.
I, too, hope you’ll leave this place open so we can still read your wonderful posts. I also hope that, even though you don’t respond, that you’ll still read e-mails. Don’t know what else to say. You’ll be missed. But I hope that you heal soon. Looking forward to hearing that news.
Love ya, sis!
XOXOXOXO
I echo what others have said here.
You are an inspiration
Loved
Clever
Funny
Lovely
Worthy
Wonderful
Caring
Not only do you make others feel that all about themselves, you embody the very definition of the words as well.
I’m with Shari… you’ll be hearing from me… possibly even after you talk to the sheriff.
Thank you so very much, Susie for sharing “you” with us as long as you can.
You and your lovely family will be in my heart and prayers.
((Hugs))
You are loved by all your blogging friends, and I include myself in that…..I pray for a miracle for you, and you keep checking back even if you can’t answer or write, we will send you messages…. Susie you have been on my favorites list for a long time….for you are one of my favorites….bless you……enjoy your daughter, and family…… judy
Speechless, crying, sad and pissed at WTF. So now that I got my own self-centered shit out the way.
I understand, I love you, I am right here if you ever need me. I’m sorry, I feel for you, I hold you in my heart.
Me again.
What?!?! I TOLD you I wasn’t going anywhere… . I miss you already.
I’m here again. Just thinking of you honey.
Take care of yourself and have fun with your daughter and hubby….you’re going to be thought of a lot, I hope you can continue your blogging soon. I’ll be praying that this is just a short, temporary break…
Lots of hope to you for numerous more good days rather than not so good days…
Take care!
Cindy
Missing you, but understanding completely, susie.
Will still think about you everyday, sending prayers, love, and head butts from Fiero (they feel good.)
What Allie said!
I know I barely know you, and only through your blog, but regardless I am really going to miss you, and I will continue to keep you and your family on our prayer list. You are a funny, kind, delightful person and this all makes me more sad than I can say.
But I do understand, and you must do what you need to for you. Please consider keeping your blog open, though. At least we can stop by and let you know we’re thinking of you.
Many, many hugs and may God hold you in His arms which will never fail you!
AAARRRGGGHHH!!! <— mostly for the pain this thing is causing you, much more than for the pain of not seeing you here anymore
your soul is beautiful and healthy and loves your family, and that’s the only thing you can nurture on your own without the help of any doctors. i’ll continue to pray.
I’ve been here a couple of times now since I read that you’re closing up shop. I haven’t commented yet because I don’t really know what to say. Like some others, I’ve seen this coming since you haven’t posted for quite a while. I’m so sorry that it’s come to this, but I think you’re doing the right thing in devoting all your time and energy to your family. I feel like I know you personally, and I will certainly miss reading about the crazy things you do, like registering at singles websites. I will think about you and pray for you and your family often. I also hope you don’t completely close the place down, so that we can stop in and check in on you. God bless!
hey Jif? can you pop on here once in a blue moon and give us an update?
We’ll leave the lights on and the taps flowing behind the bar…we also clean up after ourselves.
OG
Much love to you, Susie. Thinking of you and your booty flies often.
Happy Easter Susie.
He is Risen.
May your Easter be absolutely wonderful.
May someone find the answer to WTF and fix it promptly.
May you always have sunshine on your face. (Not that oppressively blinding stuff, but the kind that is peaceful and warm. There’s a big difference.)
William beat me to it, so I’ll respond to him: He is risen indeed!
Happy Easter, Susie!
Happy Easter, Susie.
I’d share some of my Easter Candy with you…
I’ll add another Easter “Indeed!” here. And some real tears. And what Tina and Shari and CircusKelli said. And so many others.
Hugs of love and prayers, often.
~KC
I will continue to come here for the great inspiration you give, and can only pray that I’m half as decent of a human being as you are.
You are truly loved by so many, I’m thinking of you often and will always have the print of you on my heart!!
Lots of love, and hope for you always, J
Happy Resurrection Day!! The promise of new life, new beginnings, new joy. I wish that for you, and so much more… like say, chocolate.
Love. Always.
Happy Easter, dear. Hope you’re eating enough chocolate for all of us. Lord knows I am.
Susie, is this your secret?
I keep checking back for a post and am very sad that this is it. Bless you, honey, I’ll keep praying for you. You are right (darn it) that your energies need to go to your family and your work and that you don’t need one more “I should do this/want to do this” hanging around your neck every day.
I will miss you. And I’m stubborn enough that I’ll keep checking and hopefully they’ll come a time when there’s a post saying “They figured it out”.
Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Although I haven’t been blogging much lately, I come here to check up on you!
Take your time, and do what’s right for you!!!
Just ‘lookit’ all the love you have here alone. Simply amazing…
So sorry to read this. I hope the rebirth that Easter represents comes into your life and body and that the power of healing will bring you back. All the best, Pink
I don’t know what to say except to thank you for being you, and for all the laughs and tears we’ve shared through your writing. I will e-mail you – it’s OK if you can’t reply – but do leave this place open. Maybe if you have a ‘good’ day you can see what we’re saying – and you know people will want to stop by and let you know we’re thinking of you.
Much love. xx
Holding you in my prayers, and sending you a hug across the miles.
FYI, there are a number of adaptive devices for technology that you might want to look into. Email me, or have your hubby if you need info. on where to go for them.
Wishing you the very best always. You’ll be back, I know it.
i came back to read the sweet comments, and i saw “PinkPoppies,” but i accidentally read it as “PinkPoopies.” so i had a good laugh amongst the sadness of missing you. because no one would choose the username “PinkPoopies,” silly Rz!!!
I wish you strength and happiness and health and all of the other wonderful things that your other friends have sent.
I will still check in all the time, hoping for a WTF update, news from Jif and to just up your stats so you know that people are thinking of you!
Thank you for always inspiring.
xxx
I am completely behind Helen.
I don’t know anyone else like you, online or off. Thank you for being here and giving of yourself to undeserving heathens like me.
XOXO to you, too.
Susie, thank you for letting us in and being so candid with your hopes and fears — and yet, staying funny and shining with an underlying positivity and hope even when you are admitting your lowest points are present. I too will be checking back on you so when you are well enough again drop us all a little Hello, I’ll be here to say Hi back. Thank you for your words of encouragement specific to my girl Erica — I’ll leave you with a funny little story — Easter bunny hid eggs containing pastel candy coated mini eggs. I had been worried how we’d keep the sugar away from her and not have her feel left out. She and her twin didn’t realize there was candy in the plastic eggs, rather, they convinced themselves that they were little rocks and thus a potential crisis was avoided. I snuck one to Cam, her brother, and after much convincing it was Not a rock, just taste it already… and ..munch munch… his two year old blue eyes lit up and hollered “Erica! Rocks are CHOCOLATE!” (or say it like him: Wocks ah ChocWet!)
Should make for an interesting spring in the garden.
Love and prayers day for you from the pretty little Red Rock in the Atlantic.
Stupid WTF
I’m going to miss you, Susie.
((((Hugs)))
i am so sorry for you and your family. never give up, never stop hoping. and we will all pray for you.
Just checking in to say I miss you, think about your a lot, and pray even more. Hope it’s working!
Because it’s a habit now, I have to come by and say Happy Sunday. Sending good hot dog-flavored vibes (it’s Opening Day!) today.
I have been way out of things and just stopped by to see how you were. I am so sorry you can’t stay here with us right now, but I certainly understand your decision.
Have lots of fun with LG and Jiff. And know you will remain in my prayers.
John
I felt like dropping in to wish you a happy Sunday too. Hope you’re OK. xx
Well, it wouldn’t be Sunday without looking in on Susie.
A cool and blustery day here, not at all the kind I want when I need to get out and do some yard clean-up.
A church friend sent me home with a large box of yarn and pattern books.
I’ve used up the afternoon indoors doing sorting and labeling and trying to make room in my hobby closet.
A great way to procrastinate, iffen I do say so myself.
~~love and Huggs, Diane
still here. still checking back. still sending you lots of hugs and good, good thoughts!!
Just dropping by to say, that I am sure that at least the first half of my prayer is working! You cross my mind, and I pray. I am sure others are doing the same.
We love you Susie.
Monday morning hugs to you.
Just stopping by to say “hi” and let you know I’m thinking of you.
Love. Hugs. Prayers.
miss you, prayers and happy thoughts are sent your way.
Thinking of you whilst in London. I still hope we’ll meet up here one day.
You don’t know me at all, but I feel as though I know you. I lurk here on a regular basis. I have come to look forward to your posts and thoughts and wisdom. You have made me think, thank and pray. It seems such a shame to let WTF win this battle… what about voice recognition software? I think I speak for all the others who visit this wonderful place you have created, we don’t want to miss out on your posts, and everyone needs purpose in life…
Please know you are in thoughts and prayers.
Hey there, Susiekins! Just popping in to say “HI!” and I’m thinking about you. (( Hugs ))
I’m cuckoo for COCOCO puffs!
Hey, just wanted to let you know I think of you often.
*much loves*
Its April Fools day – here’s hoping WTF is a joke and you’re all better now.
thinking about you often.
operagal
Just stoppin’ in to say I’m thinking of you today my friend. {{{{{Susie}}}}}
Hey, Susie! Just stopping in to say “hi” and to tell you I’ve been thinking/praying for you. Hope you’re having a good day!!
Don’t often say Hi, but don’t often go a day without missing you. Just sayin’ …
Hi Susie. Thinking about you.
Just stopping by to say hi.
(Hi.)
Love. Hugs. Prayers.
Hi honey!
Walks up to the door. Sees that no one is home right now. Sadly walks away, then walks back to leave note under door:
Hi, Susie!
We love you and hope to see you soon.
Missing you more than you could even believe we could.
{{HUGS!!}}
KC
Sending more thoughts and prayers your way…
Hi Susie – Really missing you. Really. Still praying. Still searching, hoping, and wishing you some major magic. Just wanting for miracles to kick in..
Oh, crap. Got here very late. But not too late to say how much I appreciate you and your writing. I have often thought about how painful it must be to just write posts and comments on other blogs. So I think you got your priorities just right. What bothers me the most, of course, is that WTF is causing it.
Sending you lots of healthy pink vibes. Hope you drop in now and then so we know how you’re doing, sweetie.
Hope you are doing well and enjoying your family. Please let us know how you are doing when you get a chance. You are in my thoughts very often, and always in my prayers. DonnaJo
Happy Sunday Fairchild Family.
Thinking of you.
Happy Sunday Susie. Miss you.
Its been a long time since I’ve been by. I’m sorry reading about WTF and how it has progressed.
I will send positive energy and prayers your way.
xx
pinks
Happy Sunday, susie.
Just missing you and sending bloggy love and cyber hugs:
{{Susie}}
Hi! Hope today is nice to you. I would be if I were today, but I’m not… I’m just me, so I hope today takes its responsibility seriously.
Love you!
I’ll be haunting this little place, hoping to see a return to arm-y days and SusiePosts. Until then, you and your family are in my prayers. Take care.
Just stopping by to say ‘hi’ again. I think about you every day and wonder how you’re getting on. Much love from my side of the pond. xx
Oh, and, one hundred!!!!!!!
Goes to show that if a post is left long enough,
it will reach 101 comments.
Thought of you this morning when I woke up with my left hand numb.
Feel Better Soon….
~~love and Huggs, Diane
Sending much loves
xxx
Happy Thurthday, Mith Thoothie.
Hey Susie, hope all’s going well, thinking of you!
Heya Susie! Just dropping by from DINKland to say hi.
Take care, and sending prayers for WTF to get the hell out and never come back!
Hi Susie – Just wanted you to know I’m still here. The prayers are hovering and swirling.
Happy Sunday Susie. Thinking of you often.
Happy Sunday, Susie. I miss your pictures and words of wisdom. Hope you are doing good, feeling better and enjoying time with your family!
Think of you often, sending good thoughts, vibes and prayers your way.
It’s a beautiful Monday morning and I’m thinking of you.
I pray you are enjoying this beautiful day. May you be able to enjoy the entire week of beautiful weather with Jif, LG, and Biscuit.
:::knock, knock:::
Hi! How th’heck are ya?? Stopping by with a hug, a big ‘ol cuppa coffee and a cinnamon roll to share. Wanna hangout? Miss you!! Love you!
Just saw you updating on Twitter – so nice to see you around. I do miss you. Loads of love from Stumpy and me. x
Checking on you, dearest. Love. Hugs. Prayers.
Sending love always!
I can’t begin to explain to you how often I find you in my thoughts. it’s strange to feel so much feeling and thought revolving around someone I’ve never met, yet you’re someone I believe in, Susie, and I feel so much hope for you and your family. I have so much respect for you – -
You’re a brilliant and insightful woman and you’re resilience is amazing. I wish for nothing but the best for you and yours.
Just a note to let you know that you are thought of and hope you are beating the crap out of this WTF.
Miss you and your stories.
I thought I would check in . . .
for some reason i broke into song, “Have I told you lateeeeelllyyyy that I loooooove you?”
and I thought of you.
I love you, Susie.
Just stopping by to moon everyone and spray a little graffiti on the walls.
And another Sunday. Hope you are kicking WTF’s Butt! Happy Sunday Susie.
I came by to tell you I love you, but now I see I need to clean the walls and ask Bucky to please pull up her pants.
Happy Monday, Miss Susiekins.
((Hugs))
hiya
Hey Susie. I hope and pray you are getting better.
XOXO
JOMAMA!!
*brings over a roll of duct tape*
Duct tape fixes everything, you know.
XOXOXO
Hello, friend. Just checking in.
Love. Hugs. Prayers.
Hi! Missin’ you. Just wanted to be here for a minute where you’ve been. Sending love, peace & hope.
Hi Susie, just want you to know that I’m thinking of you, and I hope that your getting better….it’s tough not knowing how your doing……when my granddaughter was so sick, my daughter went to Caringbridge, and it’s a sight that when people are sick, you can go to and find out how they are doing….I wish someone in your family could do that…..please know that I am praying for ;you,…… judy